Twas the night before Christmas and who knew my emotions could go from
- It’s Christmas tomorrow. I’m not that bothered but it will be a good day.
- Omgosh I feel so low I could cry my eyes out. I want this year out of the way. I want Christmas out of the way. I’ve had enough.
I am aware that I am being so negative and I hate it. It is probably pushing people away. 😢
I lost my dad 3 years ago. Christmas has not been the same since. This year feels especially difficult because I have also been dealing with sexual assaults from my childhood amongst other things.
All sounds like an excuse but believe me it’s not easy. I just want it all to go away.
Yet Christmas day will be here tomorrow and my brave face will make yet another appearance and nobody will be any the wiser. This is what I do to #survive and get through the day.
What do you do?
I just want to say that if you too are struggling, you are not alone. Stay strong people. We can do this!
I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.
Lets make 2019 count!